In my adult life, I've had this recurrent dream of being in a place similar to a beach. Most of the times I am on the sand and the waves come from the ocean, each time stronger. The bad thing about this dream is that every time I have it, there is some kind of wall or barrier right behind me in the sand, preventing me from protecting myself from the giant waves, giving me something like 2 meters of sand space only. This wall is endless, very tall, it's all over the beach, usually empty, and I can't see the end of it. In some nights the waves get high enough to cover all the sand, forcing me to float/swim. Sometimes the water gets as high as the wall, 5 or more meters and I don't even have the wall to hold on to anymore. I usually wake up when I am too scared.
Tonight I had the same dream. The difference is that I was laying down a stripe all over the sand as a limit to the water. As if in real life it were possible. But in my dream, the water was not coming past that limit. It was "behaving" because I set the limit. I was still a little afraid but I believed it wouldn't come closer than that.
I think this is a sign of me finally starting to be able to deal with my anxiety issues. That's what I choose to believe, because I have been making a huge effort for the past few months, with ups and downs. I know it doesn't go away and it's part of me, but knowing that it is possible to live well working my way around it makes me...well, less anxious. :)